An Unexpected Storm

I'm not there,
but so hopefully
I am yours.

You're not here.
But rain drops on my chest,
remind me to rejoice.

I am yours,
Rain falls on my chest that is bare.

You're not here,
but I still hear your voice.

In my ear,
because I don't have a choice.

I am yours.

Feel Love Rushing in Your Veins

Girl just let it take you over.
I am yours without composure.

Yeah, just let me take you over.
Tingling in your body,
I will never take more than,

What you are worth,
What i have done,
What you want,
I'll be your only one.

Four days on the beach,
Girl, forever I will sing,
Out of tune and harmony.

Because with you,
I've become the the man I' ve mean to be.

Accept the man that I've become.
Because he wants nothing more than us.

You're guiding force that lights
A fire up inside.

You and me,
I am yours.

Harmony and breath,
Shared in a moment.

I am yours.

Let us be just what we are.

We're in love.
You've healed my scars.

Just let it be
because my soul is yours.

I'll be waiting on the seaside,
To guard your heart because it's mine.

Until it's over,
I'll stay sober.

Until it's over,
I'll be sober.

The waves crash at our feet.
As fate's gaining down on me.
But moments true and so sweet,
Made me into the man that I'm meant to be.

It's not over.
Until you say that it is.
And once you,
I can't turn back,
Because now,
You're a part of me.

I miss the wind in my face,
The salty air in your hair.
Your breath in my ear.
Sleep means dreams that you're there.

Yeah, it's not over.
I can't stay sober.
Until you're with me every moment,
because you're love is more than closure.

It's who I'm meant to be,
It's all I see.
The man I was born to be.

But with you only.
I'll be yours
Or I'll be lonely.

Because deep inside,
You awakened a man
that I never knew that I'd become.

Let me make you mine.
Let us tell the world that,
you are better than,
dreams could imagine.

Just lay with me,
just be mine tonight.

Just be mine tonight,
And I'll be your for life.

Four Days Deep

So sentimental,
So true.
How can I
Walk away from you.

4 days spent on the beach
and in a motel room.
caressing sweetly,
making love,
in a city just as beautiful as you.
So gentle
and so true.

I see the gold on the beach
and feel your hair on my cheeks.

I see your art on my walls
and feel your heartbeat next to me.

Another existence in time.
Another life,
I've been blind.

Searching for love,
Searching for life.

You were meant to be mine.

So, I'll never let go.

My past and future,
calling your name.

Yeah, I'll never let go
You found life deep inside me.

A feeling inside,
so raw and so true.

Because in life,
the past and future collide.

What is life
but the wind
flying over the trees
the ocean and waves
crashing down at our feet.

Seagulls dare to believe
that were more than we think.
We were born to be free,
come be happy with me.

No, I'll never let go,
because you belong with me.

To Exist is to Be Brave, To Fight for Existence Takes Courage and Patience

To my friends and family that have always supported me or have come back to me at some point in my life, I thank you. I've been a lot luckier than most of my peers in the Transgenger community.  A lot of times we feel like God or the universe or whoever is responsible for our situation has "made a mistake."  Especially when it comes to justifying ourselves to a conservative individual or community. For those that are struggling to regain or repair family ties, and everyone out there who doesn't understand why or how we feel, I will propose this:

We have been given the great honor of suffering, to show that God did not make a mistake. But rather, he has burdened us ("his children") with a message to give to the world. So as not to judge those that are our fellow human beings, regardless of gender, sexuality, preference, or orientation. It is only his duty to judge our human kind and the actions we commit while carrying these blessings that we've struggled with as graciously as humanly possible.

Dream Waltzing

Dancing inside,
but I don't have to move.
Just let me lead,
cause this moment's meant for you.

I have no rhythm,
I have no reason,
to be worthy of you.
But I'll rhyme my way,
into whatever gets me through.

Cause with each step,
and with each twirl,
slip into your heart,
while mine's still beating still.

Let each touch be another start,
broken hearts beating to life's march.

Can't promise that,
I'll always be on beat.
But take my hand
and I'll show you what love is meant to be.

As Always, You're Last to Know

Mon cheri,
I'm as beautiful as you dreamed that I could be.
Discouragement is my enemy,
But I won't let your scars get the best of me.

I loved you once,
But I've pulled out the pieces
Of all your indignity,
All of my weakness.

You're worse than I remember,
And I'm wiser than you thought I am.
You made your bed,
let me tuck you in.

Feel free to dream of me.
Though I'm not coming back.
I don't give my love out for free.
Sweet dreams.

To Have Wings and The Sea, My Soul Seeks

To live on the coast,
Feel the breeze of the sea,
Salt in the air,
Then I swear I'll be free.

I live in a desert,
Void of water and tides,
I can't say that it's not beautiful,
But the ocean is where my heart lies.

It's in my heart and my soul,
Plastered all over my walls,
Decorative and figuratively,
Longing echoes in these halls.

I thought I heard seagulls yesterday,
After 10 hours in an office,
A whole day wasted away,
Without regard for what I wanted.

If I could be any creature,
Whether real or fantastical,
I would be a bat or a seagull,
To have wings would be magical.

I could fly coast to coast,
Or just up and down the beach,
Watching and waiting,
As the tides roll in and recede.