Stars

It's so silly to write to someone who's not there.

Somebody save me,
Take me piece by piece
Now that I'm falling apart.

Put me back together,
Cause I'll make it through it.

There's a woman out there.
I know she can hear me callin.

I feel her love tearing through me
And I know she can feel me too

When I look to the stars,
I know I'm stopping her heart.

Kiss me at midnight
Kiss me where the big dipper starts,
And the north star falls apart.

.

I wanna feel weak in the knees.
Want someone to laugh
And be weird with me.

Sit and watch the sun rise
Melt as the sun's colors
dance in her eyes.

I feel her waiting
I feel her yearning for me.

Astronaut

I miss you.

Because I know shouldn't.

Because I've loved you too many times.

Because your boba stole my heart

And I've been trying to figure out where it went ever since.

I know where it's at.

And I know that you have it.

But I don't think you do.

So, I suppose it's time to get it back.

You won't know it's missing.

Will I feel it flying?

Will I know it's free?

Right now I swear I'll always feel you.

Holding my heart to yours.

A pain that I deserve.

Give me a reason,

For loving the space between,

For healing the ashes I've been running from.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

I hate you for forcing me to let go!

It's tearing me inside!

Will I be whole in time?

You're ripping me apart.

Maybe if I'm lucky I can,

Catch your stars.

Maybe I'm not alone.

I swear I won't leave you alone.

Letters to

So... I'm discovering that I wrote you a lot of letters... And I hope this isn't offensive or too weird. But I'm sifting through all my old writings and I just found this one. Please bear with me. I wanted to tell you all of this once upon a time.

October 23, 2013

Dear - ,

I had a 5 page letter drafted up to tell you how much you hurt me and how the past few months have fucking sucked. But after taking a few steps back to think on it, I want to tell you thank you. I can't say that I'm not angry and hurt. Such is the curse of being in love with a musician and a free spirit. 

Really, all I want is for you to be happy. I've not forgiven you yet but I know in time I will. Time will hopefully allow you to forgive me too. You're a phenomenal and talented musician. And more so a phenomenal and beautiful human being. You've inspired me to chase my crazy ass dreams, and for that I owe you a thank you. Despite what I say to help me cope, I don't regret a single moment of the life I shared with you. I hope I share it more someday, when I meet you at the top of both of our careers. Because you've awakened a part of me that met you at midnight in front of the  hanging tree. Midnight wants us, midnight wants us, midnight wants us to be. Be one. Be one, you and me. 

Stay passionate.

Stay passionate and positive, 

and know that you,

always have one fan routing for, 

routing for you. 

Sincerely,

Luke Disher

I'd Say It's Safe to Say I'm Bitter

I'm angry. 

I'm angry at you.

And right now I hate you.

I hate you for all the times I put myself aside.

Every night I've waited for you to show up.

Because you said you needed me.

You said you needed me.

So I stopped everything I was doing.

Made sure I was there to pick up broken pieces just for you.

Because I care about you.

And I hate that I do.

Because you're the flakiest person that I know.

I've wasted hours waiting.

Spent nights alone just waiting for you to show up.

You say you'll be here.

Because you need to be.

Five unanswered calls gone to voicemail later,

And I'm left drinking a beer by myself.

Watching a stupid movie I'd rented just for you.

I'm disappointed in you.

And disappointed in me for falling for your half truths,

Your bent truths, 

Your cowardice,

Your lies,

And your empty promises.

I've been there waiting to pick up the broken pieces time and time again.

Yet everytime it's me that you end up shattering. 

Quietly and alone.

I reassemble myself on my own. 

Just pay your rent on time, 

I'm turning out the lights. 

Good night.