Body Heat

Body heat.
As humans we radiate energy produced solely buy the muscles of our hearts.

We share this heat with the ones that we love.

In times of closeness
and in times where the need to survive is paramount.

No all creatures on earth can produce such life giving energy,
we are fortunate to have the metabolism to produce our own heat.

Think of a fire in your own hearth,
and how it warms you so.

Cozying up to one another,
despite the cold windows.

Our bodies do the same.
Though not as dramatic,
but it connects us as beings.

Holding someone close,
feeling their heart beat,
knowing that as it paces,
it's transfering warmth into your core.

The warmth that we recieve,
comes from an involuntary beat.
But voluntary or not,
we share love through body heat.

May it beat faster with your partner meant to be.

Just Let Go

Judge this as you will...  I love everyone.

I'm a man of my word.

Wont tolerate those who say I'm absurd.  

Cause I'm a man tolerant of anything obscure.

If you call them a f**got,

Then I know you're not worth,

My energy and my time,

because you don't know how love works.

I don't care about gender

I care about fighting for what's right.

Judge who you will,

But my friends deserve life.

A life that is given,

Should thrive without judgement or trial.

A life is given the right to love others in time.

I could care less what they think.

What others think of me.

Honest souls that love another is all i can see.

Judge them how you will,

And judge as you wish to judge me.

Others long for a love,

That they have found to be.

...

Keep searching for love,

Is all i can say.

For soon it will find you

If you believe.

But dont scorn those who have found it

Because if you truly believe,

Love will only find you,

If you love others for free.

Repetition

Just keep adding up,
Adding up
Adding up.

All your broken hearts,
Broken hearts,
Broken hearts.

With your shallow love,
Shallow love,
Shallow love.

Just a victim of your shattered heart.

I can remember the days
when you took my breath away.

Can you rember that day,
when I asked you to be mine?

Because all the time,
we were together,
I was blind.

Every moment,
every second,
I was destined to decide.

What would I do,
When you weren't there?

What would i do,
When no one else could compare.

The love that we had.

The love we made.

The love you promised
Was one that wouldn't fade.

It's now gone.
And it's lost.

Something that can't be replaced.

I'll spend eternity loving a soul,
a beautiful soul without a face.

Love Binding Remains

If i write you something obscene.
Will you look at me differently?

For I am not the man you want me to be,
But a deviant I am,
In search of my fellow being.

I cannot proclaim that I have done no harm,
I cannot proclaim that I will keep you from harm.

But I can promise you this.
You shall never be harmed with my soul.

As it exists for you,
The only love I trust as true.

You are mine,
I am yours.

Forever of course.

I admit,
It's been hard to commit.

But your love is true,
I can't deny you.

I am broken and spent,
Forever I am bent,
Forever impotent, but I am yours.

Oh, I am yours.

Never can a child,
Be born from my own blood.

But I will love it just all of the same.

Blood doesnt matter
With families made.

Love's binding
And all that remains.

Wishful Thinking This Holiday

In times of disparity, you let your soul bleed.... please dont take me for weak.  I'm just a man in love.... if  anyone has a cure, im open for advice donations.  

So, it's the holidays.  I was putting up my tree and i found Yvette and my ornaments. I have tried to cope with her being gone a million ways.   But in all honesty, there isn't one thing on this earth that makes my whole enitre being light up like she does.  (I know thats stupid.  Maybe pathetic.... you can block me if you want.  Thats your right.)  But honestly, my wish for this christmas doesnt aquate to anything material.  I just want someone, anyone, to let Yvette know that ive not given up and that i still love her.  I am proud of her and will always support her.  And that i will never, ever love anyone the way that i love her.  I wont settle for anyone less than her.  And if i have to, i will die still loving her.  Im hers.

Its a pathetic message... im sorry.  But if you can relay it more gracefully, well, i trust you.  Happy holidays my friends.

Sand Dunes in an Hourglass

Stoneman quiet in the city.

A whitefish in a puddle. 

Quiet and amiss, 

Im writing from an alley. 

Dreaming of the seaside,

And you're hand locked with mine.

Solace in two heartbeats, 

Grottos frozen in the tides. 

Two lives energy-efficient, 

Locked together for all time. 

Miss you're face smiling in the moonlight, 

And our palace so surreal. 

Yet real,

But lost in the sands of time. 

Just a Ramble

The world of Facebook and everything on the internet combined:  I am transgender.  I am not afraid of life.  I will conquer every challenge, I will fight.  Not for myself, but for those that are blind.  Being born such as I have, is not something that I've not battled with inside.  I was raised as a body of Christ, and I have risen from the shadows despite, what the world has criticised. I am me. The only version of this life.  A battle I'm meant to weather. Not been asked or for my opinion to decide.  I will fight until my death because I truely believe, in a God that isn't hateful, but who made me into the man that I am supposed to be.