The Butterfly Effect

I tried to love you once,
I tried to love you twice.
Truth is that,
I've been in love this whole time.

Forgiveness and forgetting is what I've been aiming for.
Been living my life without you,
and my heart was so sore,
I was tempted by another,
now I'm alone and broken even more.

How do you justify,
a promise to follow your heart?
then get wrapped up in the moment,
because you've been so torn apart.

I was ready for the wind, the waves and to see your face,
I was finally ready to come and get you and get out of this place.
But then I went and fucked it all up,
because my heart wasn't willing to wait.

I gave up the love of my life,
for another that threw me away.
I should have known that was coming.
Karma's slap in my face.

I deleted your number because I figured you'd want it that way,
Now I'm blocked on your Facebook and Google,
Erased.

I have no way of telling you how sorry I am,
It was rude to tell you I'd be there,
Then tell you I met someone else,
and hope that you'd understand.

It's true we have a lot in common,
But I have this way of repelling,
all the girls that aren't you,
But that's my fault, I had it coming.

I tried to fill these holes you left me with 3 years ago
With the "safety" of another,
but she took what she wanted
and then she let me go.

I shouldn't have trusted,
a heart that's as broken and bruised up like mine.
I should have stayed loyal,
I was giving you time.

I was two seconds away from having another try
And I messed it all up
because I didn't want to lie.

You're the one that I dreamed of,
That first night after they opened me up.
I wanted more than anything to see you.
In my dream, you were singing.
But then I woke up.

And reality hit me,
When you asked to see me,
I didn't want to hurt you,
because I knew she'd be with me.

I pushed you away,
And now you're gone without a trace,
In just two minutes of my life,
I threw all my happiness away.

I'm sorry.