I Refuse to Say Til Death Do Us Part

I refuse to say til’ death do us part.

Because you never know what is going to happen.

And honestly,

I don’t believe existence ends when you take your last breath.

I could die tomorrow,

Or God forbid you die before I do.

Just know that,

Not even death can keep me from you.

Death will not part us,

As long as my existence continues in this universe,

I will be by your side,

I will find you,

I am infinitely yours.

My birthday is tomorrow,

We’re still young,

But years are passing by.

And as they do,

Know that I’ll never ask for material things or money,

I’ll only ever ask for you.

I’ll wait my entire life for you to find me somehow.

Or if I have to I will find you.

I’m living for the only thing I know that I desperately want

The only thing that I can’t live without.

Just know that it’s you.

How Do I Get Your Attention?

I'm not on fire,
but my world's going up in flames.
Choking on smoke now,
smoldering years now,
we're both to blame.

I yelled loud,
I screamed you out.
You left twice,
and I broke down.

And when you came back,
I didn't trust you
I didn't know,
how this would go.

I didn't know,
what you wanted.
It's you I've wanted all along.

But then I got retarded,
started doubting you
started playing to my own tune.

I found a girl,
who said she cared,
wanted more than just a one night stand.

So, I let you go,
because I thought she'd be,
 good for me.
But she let me down.
And now I'm all alone.

Maybe that's how my soul is meant to be.
Forever wandering.
Maybe I should be
Tim Burton's muse,
Cause this dark soul's got nothing to lose.

So, I met a girl.
She said she cared for me.
Said she'd take this heart that's yours,
and cradle it
carefully.

But nows she's gone
without a trace,
and so are you,
and I'm the only one to blame.

Why did I fall in love.
Why do I have to care so much.
For someone who,
 doesn't know,
doesn't care when I need her the most.

I'm crazy!
I have to be crazy and a masochist.
Because I refuse,
To let you go,
because I never wanted this.

I wanted you.

I am yours if you'll have me.

I've had so many opportunities to be 25,
to conquer queens,
but that's not me,
not who I am.

And each time that I find the one,
she's not interested.
I feel the longing inside me,
but it's not there for her.

I am yours.

I am yours.

I've always been yours.
And I always will be.

Midnight Friend

I promised myself tonight,
that I'd write myself a happy poem.
One to offset all the negativity,
that's been bleeding out of me,
Since you left me all alone.

So, with best intentions meant,
I'm willing to commit,
to writing something silly,
Though I still won't feel content.

The other day when I,
was walking through the trees,
I felt the earth speaking all around me,
breathing life back into me.

I climbed up onto the top,
of a mountain in the city,
lights shimmering for miles.
Despite my sadness,
They were pretty.

A noise behind me took me by surprise,
a snapped twig,
And in the brush,
a twitching tail and two glowing eyes.

Most have been afraid,
but I've lost all sense of fear.
Maybe something's off now in my brain,
But I called it to come near.

It stared at me in the dark,
as I stared down at the city,
probably wondering what I was doing
"Here kitty, kitty?"

Of course he didn't answer,
But he never left my side.
I could have been his dinner
He could have taken my life.

But we sat there in the dark,
Neither of us threatening or in fear
Maybe he just needed someone near
I told him my sad stories,
and he lended me his ear.

So, there's my happy poem.
It's the most I could muster up for now.
About my midnight mountain lion friend
who stood strong behind my back
when the world felt like it as falling down.