How Do I Get Your Attention?

I'm not on fire,
but my world's going up in flames.
Choking on smoke now,
smoldering years now,
we're both to blame.

I yelled loud,
I screamed you out.
You left twice,
and I broke down.

And when you came back,
I didn't trust you
I didn't know,
how this would go.

I didn't know,
what you wanted.
It's you I've wanted all along.

But then I got retarded,
started doubting you
started playing to my own tune.

I found a girl,
who said she cared,
wanted more than just a one night stand.

So, I let you go,
because I thought she'd be,
 good for me.
But she let me down.
And now I'm all alone.

Maybe that's how my soul is meant to be.
Forever wandering.
Maybe I should be
Tim Burton's muse,
Cause this dark soul's got nothing to lose.

So, I met a girl.
She said she cared for me.
Said she'd take this heart that's yours,
and cradle it
carefully.

But nows she's gone
without a trace,
and so are you,
and I'm the only one to blame.

Why did I fall in love.
Why do I have to care so much.
For someone who,
 doesn't know,
doesn't care when I need her the most.

I'm crazy!
I have to be crazy and a masochist.
Because I refuse,
To let you go,
because I never wanted this.

I wanted you.

I am yours if you'll have me.

I've had so many opportunities to be 25,
to conquer queens,
but that's not me,
not who I am.

And each time that I find the one,
she's not interested.
I feel the longing inside me,
but it's not there for her.

I am yours.

I am yours.

I've always been yours.
And I always will be.