hauntings

a tiny candle flickers
perpetually waiting to ignight.
I know that you've since passed on
but still my heart denies
that you've found another life
and it's time to say goodbye.

simple words now on a screen
photos proof we used to be
and ghosts of happy memories
haunt me in my dreams.

I swear I loved you once
and I swear it still remains

so now I'm writing senseless stories
about lovers only in my mind.
trying to distract myself
because I'm still broken deep inside.

I swear it seems like yesterday
no formal last goodbyes.

painful daggers thrown at hearts
in anger and in pain.
wounds inflicted by wicked words
scars and broken hearts
love will never be the same.

my aching bones tell me
that waking time is near.
my vacation's coming to a close
as I start another year.

a jar of broken hearts
I've not lost a single one.
maybe one day down the road
I'll mend them all as one.

two souls so seemingly meant to be
yet now I'm here and now you're  gone

every ounce of sanity demands that I let go
but my heart's still holding on to a tiny shred of hope

but I think I can
and with all my might
I swear that I'll try
yes I'll try
I'll try, to say goodbye.