11:51pm Spark

Is it okay to be mad?
to be angry?
to be upset?
That I don't trust because of you?
To want to hate you?
Though I've held onto a love for you for so long?

You say nice things to my face.
But you don't know me anymore.
And I think I'm done hanging on for you.
Who you used to be.
Didn't match with the man that I've become.

You'd just take me for granted.
But I won't let you push me around.
Because I have a backbone now.
You can thank yourself for that.

This will be my summer.
A Phoenix in the sun,
I'll rise from the ashes.
Sail under the burning fire of what we lost.

Reborn, I will show you how,
I even though I missed you
while you were looking for yourself out in LA
I've been moving forward.

I'm still stuck in your atmosphere.
And you're still in mine.
A true pain in my ass.
Because I don't think you're worth my time.

Still, there's a tiny spark.
One that needs my breath, my love, my soul
one that wants a fire to rage.
I try to ignore it but it's always there.

How do I let it fade to the background?
I know you're looking out for yourself.
And I'm looking out for me.
But sparks are dancing in a space unexplained.

Right now,
Complacent and miserable,
We ignore the subtle signs,
How long until our sparks collide?